hermit's thatch

The ditches are full of water from the heavy rains and do not drain much even when the rains stop. Across the surface, waterbugs skim and glide in a straight line that I could not draw. They remind me, though, of the autumn crickets in Chinese and Japanese poetry, unaware that winter is coming. The waterbugs don’t know that eventually the water in the ditches will drain. But, then, we don’t pay much attention to our own winter, to our own little ditches draining, do we? Waterbug, what was your face like before your parents were born? Not quite a koan, but at the moment it seems sufficient.

The solitary or would-be hermit grows emotionally and psychologically by accepting his or her propensity for solitude and reclusion. Such a propensity is based not on introversion, which only needs a good rationale (or excuse) to find itself embracing a solitary life. The introvert must be wary of making eremitism an easy escape from people and the world. (This is why religious orders, east and west, test their would-be hermits with years of spiritual practice.) Our approach to eremitism should be mature in the sense that it develops logically and naturally but also with growing insight. Insight distinguishes the hermit as sage versus the solitary as mere sad misfit. It is always interesting to witness an extroverted person embracing eremitism, or to see a traditional hermit comfortable with visitors from the outside world. But there are dangers to this easy traffic. In the end the hermit is not only alone but embraces solitude because solitude is an insight into the condition of us all. The solitary witnesses to profound realities that the rest of the world misses. The solitary is the unseen flower in the woods or desert, beautiful whether seen or unseen.

The rain falls in torrents. It sounds especially evocative when it hits the metal ladder and stray pails at the rear of the house. Each point of metal evokes a different sound: bass sounds like violas, pitched cadence like lead violins, hollow sounds slightly enriched, like oboes, regular thumps like percussion. But the composition is open to the influence of wind and the physics of water dripping at different rates from the roof and its angles. And the music itself is not reproducible. It only happens once, now, it seems to say, so listen.

Study, for the solitary or would-be hermit, means observing the self, watching the self respond and react in different circumstances. The self becomes an object to observe and to study. But study also refers to the typical pursuit of formal (or informal) study of knowledge, information, history, events, traditions, creative productions. Study can be a useful prerequisite to our chosen eremitical life style. Yes, it sounds like reading and reflecting, but not of the classroom or daily paper variety. In the modern world it is indispensable to learn as much as one can about a body of knowledge or a set of skills. Modern culture intends to overwhelm the individual, to make the individual dependent in thought and heart. Of course, all cultures do this, but the means and methods of technology, institutions, and organizations today seem particularly insidious. To find a congenial and benign setting for learning (and living) will be difficult without a great deal of flexibility and tolerance on one’s part, but also reserve and demurring from the habits and opinions of the world.

Experience of the world is useful to the solitary or would-be hermit because it allows the person to draw conclusions, contrasts, and confirmations. Experience is the best form of instruction because it is the most convincing. If feelings are evoked, the entire self learns, even the body. To be aware of something in the abstract, however persuasive or logical, is never as good as experiencing the good and rightness of a thing, what some Buddhists call — for lack of a better term — the “wholesomeness” of a thing. Confidence comes from this deep-seated knowledge, not from cerebral or social sources, or from authority or habit.

Discipline does not contradict the ethos of eremitism if it comes from nature, not authority. Discipline is the tempering of the self through the creation of beneficial patterns of behavior, habit, and choice. Discipline casts a rigorous eye on the excesses of experience and is a tempering element in study. Discipline is the tempo, pace, and strength of the great range of human activity, whether eating, meditating, working, studying, physical labor, creativity, interaction with others, maintaining a schedule, etc. Discipline is also a force for checking excess: eating too much or the wrong things, sloppy or overambitious meditation, working too much or too little, and so forth. Overdoing daily life can be as insidious as permitting sloth. Inactivity should be contrasted to worldly and contrived things, not to nature. We must remember not to be tempted, in the glow of discipline, to pursue worldly vanities and make contrivances.

This is part 1 of what may be many parts.

Those who reclused themselves in ancient China left the court and city with their families for rural simplicity. (The solitaries, hermits, sages, and monks came later.) These were the elite and educated of Chinese society who had listened to the fundamental advice of Confucius: “When the emperor is good, serve; when the emperor is evil, withdraw.” If we apply the advice to the modern world, we must view the emperor as authority contrived by wealth, power, violence, lies, robbery, exploitation, and hypocrisy. The only authority for the solitary is nature, the universe, and God — however one chooses to define these. It can never be human society. It can never be some contrivance imposed by another. We might, perhaps, contrive a life for ourselves in this complex world, and we might conform ourselves to contrivances out of sheer practicality, but let our lives always be flooded by the light and healing waters of what transcends us.

In relating with another person, we are not dealing with that person only but with everyone that person has known or who has been an influence. This is why we are always admonished by sages not to judge. This does not mean that we cannot figure out whether the other person’s presence will be salutary or not. The insight of the solitary is that the solitary has “transcended” people and does not intend to pursue anything with people at all or anything about them. Not out of pride or arrogance but because we are all alone, all prey to our experiences, influences, fears. Solitude means being free to live in harmony with the universe and, therefore, with others. Solitude means not being bound to contrivances, willful or unfortunate — our own or that of others. We wish this peace on everyone.

An unexpected appearance: a ruby-throated hummingbird. Very rare in our vicinity; only 1 spotted in an annual Audubon count of sixty-mile area. The bird hovered over the colorful flowers a few moments, testing several, its wings invisible in the whir of motion. The throat was black, not red, as the field guide states often occurs. In a moment it flew off. A ten-second gift!

The dictionary does not help distinguish among words like hermit, recluse, and solitary. Etymologies help but each word is full of our own personal and subjective impressions. My sense is that hermit embodies a stricter sense of solitude that is conscious, deliberate, with personal justification behind it, if not a body of theory (philosophical or spiritual). A recluse is someone who avoids a public persona. That conveys a more psychological sense to me. A solitary is a kind of informal hermit, not strict in terms of interpersonal relations, not strict in terms of a psychological tendency.

Of course, all these shades of meaning are my own, and only at this moment. None of these perceptions of word meanings may be accurate at all (by what standard, anyway?), or mean the same things to you.